soeffinhappy

I'm so tired I'm even too tired to read through the threads. A few sentences into peoples journal entries, all the words start to blur together. Insomnia is back but different than before. I've always had trouble falling asleep at times but once I was asleep I would sleep like a rock. Now I have trouble falling asleep and I'm very restless. I wake up three times in the night, shivering because I've thrashed all the pillows and blankets off the bed in my sleep. Feet and hands that are beyond my control smack things off of my bedside table. I don't feel bad while I'm awake though, no worse than usual. Something is buried deep in my subconcious and it's causing trouble.

This week brings some new and hopefully good things. I'm back to karate after skipping a week. Going back to intense excersise after a week of laziness is very tiring. It's like your starting over. You remember all the moves and everything, but when you're done every muscle in your body is sore. It felt good to train again though. I forgot how much fun it is to attack a pad.
I've got all kinds of new music happening now. I just bought some new albums(Rage Against The Machine, The Melvins, Jet) and I have my first practice with a new band on fri. I have a feeling that this band will either work out amazingly or terribly. I think whatever happens though, I'll have new people to jam with. I love making music. I love it when you lock into that perfect groove and you don't ever have to change it. Then somehow everyone just knows that it's time to change and you do and it's great. The dynamics going from quiet to loud and back again, the guitar ringing out while the bass and drums lock into the groove, the explosive energy when we're all pounding away at the same time. It's like aural sex. Hmmmmmm......
Everyone goes into depression stages, some more serious than others and everyone has a different way of dealing with it. What kind of cacoon do you wrap around yourself when you feel the depression come around?