Depression is like an old friend who you're not very fond of anymore but who you owe a lot to. It just kind of shows up and you can't turn it away. I was doing pretty good for a while but it came back for a while. The depression, and the insomnia, and the cynicism, and that sickening dead feeling inside. You know, your standard...
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So the Portland trip is starting to be set in stone. It will all be dashed to hell if my managers wife doesn't have her baby in the next week and a half though. She'll have it soon though. Why? Because the gods love me and the universe is my friend. Odds are against me getting fired which is good. Here's a little word of...
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rxqueen:
damn you for not giving me a time!!
email me yr #;s again please!
email me yr #;s again please!
rxqueen:
seannnnnnnnnnnnn....
where you at?!
im gonna be in phila on...the 22nd. come to the girlzgarage tour its only like $13.50!!
where you at?!
im gonna be in phila on...the 22nd. come to the girlzgarage tour its only like $13.50!!
Ugggg, I'm gonna puke. Playing a half hour set with no water before or during will do bad things to you. It was worth it though. We totally kicked ass. Aside from one or two minor slipups which we covered like PROS the show went great. Fuckin Bill Martin got his ass kicked too. Oh sweet justice thy name is kickin Bill Martin's ass. Now...
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grey:
i'm glad you had a good show!
audio:
dude, thats the best excuse i have ever heard..
Newspaper taxis appear on the shore
A journal by Sean Fogarty
HOw's THIS for weird?
So the other day I'm on my way out from the mall wondering if they actually have a test to find out if you're nerdy enough to work at EB or if the managers there have some sort of really weird, uber-nerd esp, when I start to hold the door...
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A journal by Sean Fogarty
HOw's THIS for weird?
So the other day I'm on my way out from the mall wondering if they actually have a test to find out if you're nerdy enough to work at EB or if the managers there have some sort of really weird, uber-nerd esp, when I start to hold the door...
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voltaire:
I posted the soup recipe with directions in my jounal today, if you still want it .....
alexis:
You're too lazy to spam bomb my SG journal???!?!? Ah that's ok. You were hit on by an old black woman... at EB too of all places... you're my hero.
xoxo Alexis
xoxo Alexis
OK so my last journal was kinda odd and probably worried people but now that I look at it again, it looks worse than it is. I hope no one was alarmed.
I'm moving and need to get all my stuff from one house to the other. That means digging in the old boxes, and the closets, and under my bed. I don't like doing...
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I'm moving and need to get all my stuff from one house to the other. That means digging in the old boxes, and the closets, and under my bed. I don't like doing...
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rxqueen:
Sean 
Maybe this portland trip is what you need?
Getting away for a bit may be good for you!
Don't let Amy win. I think maybe you need something else to consume you. I'm not sure what tho.
Are you moving in with yr mom?
Anyways, sir. I hope yr alright.
Don't go too crazy now!
you can call me anytime after 9. any day.
if you need someone to talk to or whatever.
ok?
Maybe this portland trip is what you need?
Getting away for a bit may be good for you!
Don't let Amy win. I think maybe you need something else to consume you. I'm not sure what tho.
Are you moving in with yr mom?
Anyways, sir. I hope yr alright.
Don't go too crazy now!
you can call me anytime after 9. any day.
if you need someone to talk to or whatever.
ok?
grey:
yeah, it takes time. it also takes getting rid of the ghosts. good luck doing it and try not to get to involved in it. just make it a chore like anything else--cleaning house.
Awwww man am I fucked in the head. Hope I can sleep tonight....
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invisigirl:
what happened?
les:
whats the dealio?
It's nearly eight am. What am I doing up you ask? I'll tell you! Nothing exciting. My sister just needed a ride to school. Funny how many "best friends" you suddenly have once you get a set of wheels...
Me and my sister left so early this morning that the sun wasn't even up. On the way there I went into a Wawa and for...
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Me and my sister left so early this morning that the sun wasn't even up. On the way there I went into a Wawa and for...
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mei:
thanks - the bath was great..
mother nature is a fickle one..
mother nature is a fickle one..
scarlett:
i had off today too, thank fucking god....
and yeah i noticed how isobel left, and the hurricane isobel came... strange...
heh i love going into stores looking like a zombie like that... in fact i make it a point
and yeah i noticed how isobel left, and the hurricane isobel came... strange...
heh i love going into stores looking like a zombie like that... in fact i make it a point
Don't feel like updating so you're treated to this: http://www.animaland.org/asp/games/fetch/fetch.html
And if you wanna make sense, then what ya lookin at me for?
A journal by Sean Fogarty
Tonight as my father, my stepmother and I finished our dinner at the italian bistro, a gang of almost 20 waiters and waitresses assaulted my step mother with a birthday dessert all the while singing and clapping and generally making the biggest scene possible inside a restaurant....
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A journal by Sean Fogarty
Tonight as my father, my stepmother and I finished our dinner at the italian bistro, a gang of almost 20 waiters and waitresses assaulted my step mother with a birthday dessert all the while singing and clapping and generally making the biggest scene possible inside a restaurant....
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cousindell:
thank for the comment..and my friends test dont get back till next thursday....ugh it nerve reckin.
i would enter you lil comp but im havin a hard enough time writin my 10'000 word dissertation for uni..yuk
lisa
i would enter you lil comp but im havin a hard enough time writin my 10'000 word dissertation for uni..yuk
lisa
rxqueen:
I think i've sent you enough "essays" 
with all that natalie 101's. ahh remember those?
When you decide to drive up to NY, let me know and we'll shoot the shit!
So remember how everything was sucky for me for the past few months, it appears that its all taking a turn for the better. Granted, its all tentative (but then again, when is it not?). My mom is letting me stay, and i have a job interview on thursday - and not any old crummy job selling products to people...
but before i spill any more beans, i'll wait for thursday to see whats up.
xo
with all that natalie 101's. ahh remember those?
When you decide to drive up to NY, let me know and we'll shoot the shit!
So remember how everything was sucky for me for the past few months, it appears that its all taking a turn for the better. Granted, its all tentative (but then again, when is it not?). My mom is letting me stay, and i have a job interview on thursday - and not any old crummy job selling products to people...
but before i spill any more beans, i'll wait for thursday to see whats up.
xo
Whatever you do, don't tell anyone
A Journal By Sean Fogarty
People are so strange. A person could be feeling good for a couple of days and then, for no reason at all, ruin it all. I mean really good. I mean walk on the clouds, smile at everyone you see good. I mean, flying down the boulevard at 90 miles an hour good. I...
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A Journal By Sean Fogarty
People are so strange. A person could be feeling good for a couple of days and then, for no reason at all, ruin it all. I mean really good. I mean walk on the clouds, smile at everyone you see good. I mean, flying down the boulevard at 90 miles an hour good. I...
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slinkster:
does truth even exist anymore? people lie to themselves just aas much as they lie to other people.
hope you find what makes you happy. cheer up.
you write beautifully. i am jealous.
hey are you in school? just curiousss
hope you find what makes you happy. cheer up.
you write beautifully. i am jealous.
hey are you in school? just curiousss
slinkster:
well.. i'm currently unhappily shafted (sophmore), but i guess there are some advantages to going to drexel.. not sure what they are, but it's nice to think they exist.
i also sleep a lot longer when i am dreaming, unforunately it's usually when i am having nightmares.
crack drealer/cell phone dream was very weird. the sidewalk was covered with "crack", white colored powder, and my brother was having a fit about the crackdealers. then my friend who i was walking home from school with ran away from me. i started chasing after her. i was running so fast i got worn out an had to crawl. this was all after i got expelled from school. i was a bad ass. (completely not like me.) then someone took my cell phone. suddenly my friend and i were driving home from school, not walking, and she wouldn't turn around and take me back to my cell phone. it was as if my life had ended. stupid phone dependency. sorry am babbling. my dreams have been completely off the wall lately.
i also sleep a lot longer when i am dreaming, unforunately it's usually when i am having nightmares.
crack drealer/cell phone dream was very weird. the sidewalk was covered with "crack", white colored powder, and my brother was having a fit about the crackdealers. then my friend who i was walking home from school with ran away from me. i started chasing after her. i was running so fast i got worn out an had to crawl. this was all after i got expelled from school. i was a bad ass. (completely not like me.) then someone took my cell phone. suddenly my friend and i were driving home from school, not walking, and she wouldn't turn around and take me back to my cell phone. it was as if my life had ended. stupid phone dependency. sorry am babbling. my dreams have been completely off the wall lately.
What am I doing awake and online? I HAVE TO BE UP IN SIX HOURS!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!! THIS FUCKING SITE!!!!!!
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invisigirl:
sorry i wasn't around when you were bored......i hope you found something to do.
slinkster:
hahaha. badddd. go to sleep.
Come the morning light, it's a see through show
A journal by Sean Fogarty
So today an old friend that I'd been thinking about lately called me out of the blue. I actually never expected to hear from her again and to hear her voice on my answering machine was quite a shock. I picked it up before the message was done and was surprised...
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A journal by Sean Fogarty
So today an old friend that I'd been thinking about lately called me out of the blue. I actually never expected to hear from her again and to hear her voice on my answering machine was quite a shock. I picked it up before the message was done and was surprised...
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grooverider:
good answeres on the top 5 thing!
i'm a vintage freak- i own 2 late 60's slingerlands, a 67' ringo style ludwig (even though i hate the beatles) some nic ludwig steel shell snares- 1 is a bonham style 6.5" supraphonic, i have an old steel shell slingerland snare, and another wooden slingerland- blue sparkle, 14" x 5", post 'radio king' line- so it's made the same way. i have some old cymbals, including some genuine turkish k's from the 50's.
also- LP congas, bongos, a djembe, a bunch of lp bells and some roland electronic percussion and a boss sampler.
no one can say my life isn't interesting!
i'm a vintage freak- i own 2 late 60's slingerlands, a 67' ringo style ludwig (even though i hate the beatles) some nic ludwig steel shell snares- 1 is a bonham style 6.5" supraphonic, i have an old steel shell slingerland snare, and another wooden slingerland- blue sparkle, 14" x 5", post 'radio king' line- so it's made the same way. i have some old cymbals, including some genuine turkish k's from the 50's.
also- LP congas, bongos, a djembe, a bunch of lp bells and some roland electronic percussion and a boss sampler.
no one can say my life isn't interesting!
stickyrice:
"I.V. bleeds." I like that! And she probably likes you.
Sorry about the cat. Yes, I've considered also that it's eerie how thoughts seem to interact with/influence the world. But then I don't understand why I see it this way, since it's hardly weird for the world to interact with/influence our thoughts ...
Sorry about the cat. Yes, I've considered also that it's eerie how thoughts seem to interact with/influence the world. But then I don't understand why I see it this way, since it's hardly weird for the world to interact with/influence our thoughts ...
i did see kill bill - i actually have the song from the opening credits stuck in my head. "bang bang."
and before you can even clearly be aware that
you're once again caught in its cunning grasp.
You're blanking out into space..
I completely hope that you find your way
out of it, though, I don't completely mean it.
Not in a sick sadistic, "I want everyone to be
miserable way." but.. depression truly
shows you the world in a different light.
Create something beautiful.
And, as the way that this entry is written..
I know you're capable of doing that.
Because, truly.. this entry is just beautiful.
It's written in a very lovely way.