soeffinhappy

thanks .. just release...

because i'm here to smother you with ehugs (sorry its the best i can do from NY) *hughughughughughughug*

positive thinking just doesn't seem to work for me for more than a few hours at a time. i think i might be at an advantage, however, because i do not watch reality television.

reprazent.

HOw about you turn the ringer off?

try this one on: i was so hung over one morning once upon a time that not only could i not figure out how to answer the phone, nor could i figure out how to kill it, that i threw it out of a 4th floor window. my roommate at the time was not pleased.

dance like there's an ass in your pants.

reprazent.

ps. please don't be too disappointed in me. you seemed to have the most faith.

oh yeah, mitch and i go way back.

my journal is a total downer, make no mistake. "nothing i do is fine" is a line from some angsty thirteen year old's awful beat poem on the N, this angsty preteen cable channel i love.

she meant that everything she does sucks. i use it when i'm feeling low.

shit, that actually happened to me once

i'll sit on your face and tell you i love you, dear.
that could be misinterpreted pretty easily i bet. i enjoyed the stories. i'll send you an email with more specifics. i would have done so sooner, but i've been kinda out of it.

reprazent.

I say kill them....kill them all!

Thanks! I appreciate it, though I think all those people commenting in her journal may have traumatized her.

You know, to this day no one has ever sent me a picture of their cock. Well, at least, not just their cock.

I appreciate how I can just pretend I wrote your journal entries, and therefore keep mine relatively upbeat. You are providing me a great service. Screw off your own damn self. I'm-a get drunk, when I should be making drum loops.

What? No more Lone Rangers reference? For shame you... I'd argue that Palaniuk's Lullaby was a lot better than Choke and probably his most mature work. Meanwhile, you Mr. Happy ask for narrative prose, I give you narrative prose. Check my journal for page one of ongoing story, cut me some slack on formatting though, the journal fucks it every time.

edited to remind you i'm really interested in seeing the revised dinner story, yet have all but given up on attempting it myself.

[Edited on Mar 18, 2004 3:38AM]

let's hang out some time. some weekend. it takes me around 3 hours to get where you are. find me a place to sleep. it should be 7" by 3" (allowing for late night turning during sleep), well ventilated, and warm enough so i don't freeze or get sick.
who are you?
why aren't your stories yet filling up my inbox? i've only asked like 3 times.
i feel very disoriented at the moment.

reprazent.

Wow that band sounds pretty.....I dunno.....EMO or somthin!
Emo-ness has its place, thats fer sure.

I can relate on the depressed, what the fuck level. This life often overwhelms me. I just wish that I could do something to make the World a better, less fucked up seeming place. I had a friend give me good advice on this once. She told me that all I can do is just try to be the best person I can be, and stop trying to change the World all by myself. That took lots of pressure off my shoulders for a little while. But now I don't even think I'm being the best me anymore. Lately I've been somewhat stir crazy, and I just don't know what to do with myself.
And I think lots of people are very depressed. I mean, even if u look on this site there are so many depression related topics. I wonder if it has anything to do with this hemisphere in particular. You mentioned stepping outside of the box musically, I think that its good to do that on other levels as well. We get so used to this North American civilization, but there are so many other parts of this World that operate so differently than this place.

I think I need to travel to gain perspective on it all.
I wish I was in a band. That would be a good outlet for lots of my gutteral wrenching.

Anyway.....you are so not alone. This World is fricken nuts!


[Edited on Mar 10, 2004 9:57AM]

i'm so jealous! being in an emo band is like, my dream of forever. i have a fake emo band, Tendercore, which is just me and my friend making up emo songs about whatever is happening at the moment. our hit single is "She Broke Every Bone in My Body (Including My Heart)"

mos def a lot of people are depressed underneath their cool exteriors but in a way that can be a comforting thing to realize because it means you're not the only one who feels that way. and yeah everything can seem like shit when you're depressed, i know. there's no easy answer. lately i've been seeing a shrink which has helped some.

and never feel bad for being a drama queen when there are whole genres of music that thrive on that.

ps. thanks for the joke, it made me smile. here's one for you:

what do you get when an ex-vice president dances?

algorithms.

YES!!! THE PROFILE!!!!!
okey, i am back in Philly, no comment, and will you be there on St Patty's Day???

Boy do I feel ya. Everyone thinks that I am the happiest person they know. Little do they know, I am probably the most depressed person they know.
But after all these years, I've just gotten really good at hiding it. After all, no one wants to be friends with a miserable person. They are never any fun.

That's ok- we hate you too

"I can't even ride a bike."


...That's why we hate you.