Well Well Well, there is not much to say but that I feel like I am going mad being stuck at home all the time. Oh I fucking really wish that all this stupid shit would just fucking find its way to an end, I have a final for my math class this week. My knee is not doing as well as i was hoping it would. I seem to be unable to find someone to be with, and I have become that lonely guy that jumps at every advantage to find someone when they find someone that they really want. Needless to say but I seem to only like awesome people that already have someone. I guess I just need to fix me and all my anxiety first but it always seems so impossible maybe more because it is almost impossible to do any of what I just said I should do. Why does my heart want someone so bad? Why can't I seem to calm my mind and thoughts? And why can't I calm my heart and soul, and just let things come to my eyes. I really need to find my minds calm to find my hearts peace!!! 
