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So it is my Birthday right now at this moment and time. I am in a good general place, made a small realization that I need to be in school to control my raging thoughts. Plus I love to learn new stuff and I seem to still be really good at absorbing information. I am going out of town tonight to get my precious Fairlady Z although she is still going to need some work to be in tip top shape. All in all though I have my niece close by to keep me in check at least for a little bit. I am hoping though that I can enjoy everything that has come of my new found knowledge and put it to good use. I am still really looking forward to the new year and to some hope that all will be right and that I can keep myself out of trouble. It pains me so much the past few years what i have done that has stressed me and my family so badly. I found that where I was, i always felt out of place, and I was forced to leave what I thought was a comfort zone. I was wrong and it forced me to hit rock bottom. It has been a little over a year since I went through that and I found out and realized that I know where I should have been, back to the area where I grew up, in Austin, TX around the music. It has always been music that calms my soul. And in all you SG's I found the beauty I needed to get me by. This next year I don't have a plan but I hope that in some crazy way planning things in the not so advance will help me through. I lost well 45lbs in the last year, stopped drinking, found out I can draw, and realized that maybe I need to find love, I mean proper love not temporary. But i am still always wary about who that person might be. But I think i will open my self more to the possibility that i can find someone who is what i need and that I am what they are looking for.

Well to all that read this please be assured that I am working on something greater than myself. And my thoughts will I am sure be thoughts of your gorgeous faces and mesmerizing smiles.

I wish you a wonderful day, everyday!
Signed and Firmado,
Joe (Jose)