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you never really know for a fact who your true friends really are. i have learned that the hard way in recent weeks/months. it amazes me how many different scenarios have led to the very same occurance over and over again. people come and go as if they were never even there to begin with. it really hurts to know this truth for a fact. i have realized that you cant be "just friends" with a girl. it just doesnt work... they will always have those hidden emotions that they are just dying get out before opting to take drastic measures in order to ensure a crossed point. its all about sex, honestly, i could care less. what i need right now more than anything is a real person. no fake piece of shit looking for an easy fuck with a side of attention. i have a heart.

other than this random rant, i am doing pretty good. my semester at county college began last week. i have mixed emotions about the whole thing though. i dont like the people or my classes all that much. maybe i dont like people at all... maybe college isnt for me. despite knowing that i am not going to be happy here, i must get through this if i am going to go anywhere in life. at least thats what they say and/or want you to think. sucks doesnt it?