Well its a new year, new beginning and sadly I feel like everything is still the same or at least in my life...
Woke up a bit depressed, lonely, and horny Monday morning. As it seems my seasonal job is pretty much over now. It really sucks going from working a lot of hours to being completely cut from the schedule. I look back over the year of 2010 and I can't believe how crazy it has been. I had about 3 or 4 different jobs...and a string of different women that I have been involved with and one man. All of a sudden winter arrives and I turn around and most of my friends/people that I was talking with last year are suddenly in relationships. Which great for them but I find myself having more time to myself and feeling a bit heartbroken from the last encounter I had over 2 months ago.
Dating really sucks especially online dating because I feel like no one talks! What the hell? I tried it again, only to disable my account, only to just reactive my account this morning. I think i might just leave it up but not actively pursue. I always find women distracting as it would be something that i would want to look at on a daily basis.
I really embarrassed myself yesterday...I went to the store to pick up some herbal supplements. There was a new girl working the counter and I asked the guy did you hire new people? The girls looked up, one asian girl and the new girl. I already knew the asian chick was gay because I can just tell, and she said this is my girlfriend. Oh! And then I proceeded to ask where do you live? And do you know anyone because I am single and a lesbian Wtf? Why did I do that. Well i know why because i am lonely and would like new friends or relationship potential but I think i made myself look really desperate and lame. I think its pretty sad that going to that shop was the longest relationship I had that year at 8+ months. I think its time to drop its like its hot and save face, i know i need to quit this bad habit but its been so hard when i am in pain and have time on my hands.
Woke up a bit depressed, lonely, and horny Monday morning. As it seems my seasonal job is pretty much over now. It really sucks going from working a lot of hours to being completely cut from the schedule. I look back over the year of 2010 and I can't believe how crazy it has been. I had about 3 or 4 different jobs...and a string of different women that I have been involved with and one man. All of a sudden winter arrives and I turn around and most of my friends/people that I was talking with last year are suddenly in relationships. Which great for them but I find myself having more time to myself and feeling a bit heartbroken from the last encounter I had over 2 months ago.
Dating really sucks especially online dating because I feel like no one talks! What the hell? I tried it again, only to disable my account, only to just reactive my account this morning. I think i might just leave it up but not actively pursue. I always find women distracting as it would be something that i would want to look at on a daily basis.
I really embarrassed myself yesterday...I went to the store to pick up some herbal supplements. There was a new girl working the counter and I asked the guy did you hire new people? The girls looked up, one asian girl and the new girl. I already knew the asian chick was gay because I can just tell, and she said this is my girlfriend. Oh! And then I proceeded to ask where do you live? And do you know anyone because I am single and a lesbian Wtf? Why did I do that. Well i know why because i am lonely and would like new friends or relationship potential but I think i made myself look really desperate and lame. I think its pretty sad that going to that shop was the longest relationship I had that year at 8+ months. I think its time to drop its like its hot and save face, i know i need to quit this bad habit but its been so hard when i am in pain and have time on my hands.
It's seems as though we're in the same boat, but in different seas.
I'm sorry I couldn't give you better advice... or any advice. But I do think Hungery13ear is right about the gym part or at least finding an outlet to distract yourself.