Yeah, I'm never going to be a Suicide Girl. They hate me.
Anywho, I'm finally back from Taiwan and I'm so not used to the time change. It's almost 4 in the morning here and I'm wide awake. I'm so glad to be back, but I'm sad as well. I miss having friends around constantly. I miss Steven. I wish he lived closer. Well I guess I should go on with my dramatic being unfaithful story.
So I meet these guys with my friend Lucie, and we go drink with them. I notice there's this guy who seems to have interest in me. We get drunk and we just talk. That's how it was for the first few times. Then one night, I got too wasted and couldn't go back to my room. I spent the night with him. It wasn't magical or any good for that matter. And I don't feel like giving a play by play so basically, here's what happens. We fool around more and he begins to avoid me more and more. Eventually we stop talking, but when we're alone, he'll hit on me and shit. And then, a few days before the camp is over, I meet Steven. I can tell he likes me right away. So we just flirt and never really do anything about till the last night at the camp. We go to Luxy, the bigest, most happenin' club in Taiwan and basically, we're just all over each other. People are freaking out because I have a boyfriend and everyone knows except for him. His friend John tells him to be careful. But even though I have (had) a boyfriend, being with Steve was the greatest thing ever. I loved how we joked around about everything and his pet names for me (Babycakes, Sex Muffin, etc.). I had a blast with him, more than I've ever had with my boyfriend. And I feel horrible about it. And I'm never going to see Steven again because he lives in New York and I'm over here in the West Coast. I would dump Jason in a heartbeat to be with Steve. We had the most awesome connection. Then there's also the Eric I fell in love with the first day I saw him (ooh, such a hottie). And I don't know. I had so much fun on the Taiwan trip, but I was so bad. And I just found out that the guy I was hanging out with on that Mexico cruise, likes me as well. We're going to hang out either Thursday or Friday. See? I'm so horrible. I hate being in a relationship. Ugh. I wanna be able to flirt and have fun. WHY??
I miss Steven!!
Anywho, I'm finally back from Taiwan and I'm so not used to the time change. It's almost 4 in the morning here and I'm wide awake. I'm so glad to be back, but I'm sad as well. I miss having friends around constantly. I miss Steven. I wish he lived closer. Well I guess I should go on with my dramatic being unfaithful story.
So I meet these guys with my friend Lucie, and we go drink with them. I notice there's this guy who seems to have interest in me. We get drunk and we just talk. That's how it was for the first few times. Then one night, I got too wasted and couldn't go back to my room. I spent the night with him. It wasn't magical or any good for that matter. And I don't feel like giving a play by play so basically, here's what happens. We fool around more and he begins to avoid me more and more. Eventually we stop talking, but when we're alone, he'll hit on me and shit. And then, a few days before the camp is over, I meet Steven. I can tell he likes me right away. So we just flirt and never really do anything about till the last night at the camp. We go to Luxy, the bigest, most happenin' club in Taiwan and basically, we're just all over each other. People are freaking out because I have a boyfriend and everyone knows except for him. His friend John tells him to be careful. But even though I have (had) a boyfriend, being with Steve was the greatest thing ever. I loved how we joked around about everything and his pet names for me (Babycakes, Sex Muffin, etc.). I had a blast with him, more than I've ever had with my boyfriend. And I feel horrible about it. And I'm never going to see Steven again because he lives in New York and I'm over here in the West Coast. I would dump Jason in a heartbeat to be with Steve. We had the most awesome connection. Then there's also the Eric I fell in love with the first day I saw him (ooh, such a hottie). And I don't know. I had so much fun on the Taiwan trip, but I was so bad. And I just found out that the guy I was hanging out with on that Mexico cruise, likes me as well. We're going to hang out either Thursday or Friday. See? I'm so horrible. I hate being in a relationship. Ugh. I wanna be able to flirt and have fun. WHY??
I miss Steven!!
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Glad to have you back!
You seem very confused. Relax. Flirt and have fun! This is Dr. Turbulence's prescription. And you can meet Steven again I, but he needs to feel at least the same I guess ... you could stay in touch?