snuggalette

why are guys so completely lost when it comes to girls feelings? I mean I honestly think my boyfriend is very smart.. but sometimes i stop to think.. how can someone be that smart but completely lost when it comes to emotions? SERIOUSLY.. right now I feel like shit.. and i try to make myself better but alot of what hes been saying lately has just made me feel like ass, and i bend over backwards to compensate.. but it doesn't work.. so when i say something.. and i want to hear something.. and im digging.. its because i want him to be like "hey hunni.. i think youre beautiful" cause it doesnt really count when i ask him.. so when i say "hey did you talk about me at all" thats my way of saying "i want to hear all the nice things youve been thinking about me because right now im not too happy about myself" or when i say "is she pretty" im really saying "please tell me you love me and that im beautiful in your eyes" i dont wanna hear that you were talking about going bowling or that shes cute.. i dont care what you think of her.. whatever i dont give a shit what she looks like.. thats not what i ask.. so when i keep asking questions like this.. he gets mad and tells me to stop.. and then all i think about "oh god i just screwed up really badly if hes telling me to stop talking about something"
so how can someone so smart be completely clueless when it comes to this?
i honestly feel like i just went around in a circle and did so much work for nothing because it doesnt seem like my personality is appriciated.. well at least not now... i mean sont get me wrong.. there are so many things im happy about.. and IM NOT picking.. i am ranting.. I love him so much.. there ARE so many good things.. like my hippo and the shirt hes wearing.. but those good things dont stay fresh in my mind forever.. especially when i have to deal with so much everyday.. ugh..plus then i start to think "well maybe if things were going this way he would have never given me than or said that like maybe if he knew that this is the way things would be that he wouldnt have made some decisions that he did|" and so then i get worried and even more upset.. ugh i just wish i knew he was serious and he still does want me.. even through all of the not-so-good times..