Big and thanks to Bateman and Iggy for talking until 3am this morning with me and putting a smile back on my face.

Bateman I told you I'd look like shit this morning and.........I do But as promised I am a happier shitty person Maybe you also understand a little better about why I'm not always as happy as I make out to be

These guys are the best, in fact all of you are, thanks so much for all the sent my way. I never set out to have a pity party or "I must always feel sorry for myself just to get some comments" journal entry again, sometimes I just need to say things and writing it in an online journal is the best way especially late at night when the kids are asleep.

It looks like it's going to be a nice day today, but Jeez I'm SO tired

Smooches
Michelle xx

Maybe I'll Catch Fire - Alkaline Trio

this house is full of ears, but i can't talk to anyone. they've heard this one a thousand times. most exciting thing i do, hang half way out a third floor window, maybe throw lit cigarettes down. and maybe i'll catch fire. something warm to hold me, something pure to burn away the darkness that hides inside my mind. all that evil shit's not hard to find. i guess i only claim to be nice. this house is full of eyes, but i can't look at anyone. they've seen this face a thousand times. most relaxing thing i do, hang half way out a third floor window, and look at rocks if i fall out. and maybe i'll fall hard. something tough to break me, something sharp to rip into my insides and bleed out all that pain. sorry i don't even know your name. i guess for me it's easy this way. maybe i'll catch fire. something warm to hold me, something pure to burn away the darkness that hides inside my mind. all that evil shit's not hard to find. i guess i only claim to be nice