snowballinhell

I woke up this morning and it was just one of those "oh christ, have i upset anyone, said anything i shouldn't have, said too much, not said enough, or just funked someone off?" moments. Might just be the hangover, but it felt real enough

Let me elaborate a bit. I'm not worldly-wise despite my years, in some ways I'm still a little naive, unless you get to know me really well I'm still pretty shy. I have a very low self esteem and struggle like fuck with my weight to the point where I can get really depressed. I tend to cling sometimes to things (for things, read people) that are of the gorgeous stuff because it makes me feel good. And by clinging to these gorgeous people I feel I make a fool out of myself when that's not what I intended. I feel I bug people a bit too much sometimes, text them too much and maybe this morning was just my subconscious telling me for whatever reason to slow down and take stock of the friends I've made.

So, folks, if I've clung to you and made myself look pathetic, please just tell me, I won't be offended, I'd rather know before I carry on making a complete arse of myself. Forgive me, spank me, whatever, just don't hold it against me for having these weird moments!!

On a much brighter note:

I have had three new SG's join my friends list, so a big YAY for Iggy, Candy and Trixie, and another for yet more new friends sailormae joined me on here yesterday. Big welcome lovely people

Recently joined friends include the wonderful bateman (how's the head this morning ) and the even more wonderful zanafar who is designing me a kick-ass fairy tattoo. Big to you both

Silly moment again (just blame it on the hangover if you have to) I'm still after the torrid affair, the lovin' and maybe that's what I'm actually getting from you guys in a roundabout sort of way

So if I haven't said it before enough times I you all (maybe a few more than others - hehehe and maybe you don't actually know who you are but if you want to know if it's you JUST ASK ME and if you don't want to get embarrassed on here by the answer then MSN me or text me 07884 311144 but tell me who you are first!!!). Thank you for being my friends, it's amazing that I've only been on here for a month and yet I have over 30 people in my friends list, including some SG's I didn't think that such a friendly place actually existed and I'm SO glad to have found you all via tantra666 who got me interested in joining here. BIG to ya darling, see you Saturday!!!!!

So, in order to carry on the silliness, if you want to know ANYTHING about my life at all, ask me and keep the silliness coming my way, you guys ROCK

Smooches darlings
Michelle xx