snowballinhell

I find it kinda funny (weird, not haha) when some stranger literally half my age calls me amazing and stunning. I just, um, don't get it, I mean, I'm old enough to be their damn mother Or is that what the attraction is these days??

Maybe I've just been out of all this "stuff" for too long and don't know how to react anymore. Maybe I just feel like I should be saying I'm too old to be playing games anymore. Maybe I need lessons in how to read signals and not take things too seriously....

Personally, the next 3 years are going to be the toughest of my life and I can only hope that at the end of it, that I'm not too battered and beaten down, and that I can come out of it all a stronger, happier and more positive person. Only time itself will tell. I don't want to be the "Life begins at 40" cliche. I want it to begin before then, which is why I'm setting the 3 years as my marker. Things will be sorted before I reach the big 40. They have to be for my sanity and wellbeing.

Now all I need is for something to look forward to in a few months time. Any ideas?

I'm getting there, thanks mostly to you guys, and to the unconditional love from my two boys


Michelle xx