snow

soooooo........i'm done with surgery and doctor tests for at least 3 months. i feel HEALTHY, which is quite a weird feeling to have. i feel ridiculously sexy and confident and want to do another set.....but NOOOOO, there are no portland photographers, and the chances of me coming up with enough money to get to LA are fucking slim. i am beginning to think that i should just not do another set, and leave it at that. i'm having a hard time with that thought, because I WANT TO FUCK THE CAMERA.....you know what i mean. i want a really good set. i want my eyes to burn a huge gaping hole into your heart. i want you to look at a picture and not be able to get it out of your mind.

i'm sober. my skin is soft. i have no one to bother.