Monday Jan 08, 2007

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I have been hiding out in my house for about 5 weeks. When my head feels clear and I stop feeling so sick, I guess it will be the right time to come out. The trail of who I was, or who I wasn't. I go to the grocery store or to the library or the coffee shop. People come up to me everytime I go out and tell me how much they love me...and then I go home and I am completely alone. It would be nice to start over and have real friends. A friend who can see your pain or hold you when you cry. I think after 5 weeks I am dying to go out and laugh.
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jnthn:
once upon a time there was another life, seems like a long time ago, no?
chain letters, exquisite corpse comment trail and strange letters placed next to each other not seeming to make sense to the sane. that train. funny how different it all looks now, right?
back to paris in 3 weeks. come along this time.
miloryan:
First I was like 5 weeks of being sick, man that's some flu bug or something. Then I was like oh, some other kind of sick. Don't know what from but I do know it's prolly not that kind of sick. It sounds like the sickness I get when I try to quit the Paxil which is no friggn joke, they compare it to heroin withdrawl for some people and I happen to be one of the some. Head shocks, shakes, palpitations, speeding heart, flu like, cold sweats, hot, cold, hot, nausia, cramps, panic, more anxiety. No good at all. Anyway, sorry to see that you feel all alone I hate that feeling, good thing I got a roomate that is always home to keep me company. Well I know I've only smilled, said hello or had a few lines of dialogue with you but if you ever need someone to talk to or want to come across the river just let me know, I've been told I make a pretty damn good friend. Take care!

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