snlchick_ms

Ok, so I went to see Fantastic Four last night. It was so amazing! I enjoyed every second of it. I hate to say it but I think I may have liked it better than Pirates. Julian McMahon was beautiful as always. He plays evil so well. The only think I didn't like about it was the fact that they went and made Jessica Alba blue-eyed. She looked silly thoughout the movie. Also, something wierd was going on with the hair too. It looked almost like she was wearing a wig during the whole movie. But, other than that, no complaints at all. I really hope that they make another one.

Other news, I've been driving myself crazy. Seriously crazy. So, you all know about the boy. The one I'm madly crushing for. Well, I've been counting down my days at Wal-Mart just for the fact that I was planning on telling him how I feel, FINALLY. Now, the doubt has set in again. It's the whole fat girl syndrome....I know it is. It always pokes it's ugly head into my mind no matter how much I tell myself that it's crazy.

I get home last night to find on his MySpace, he created a new picture album with all of these very beautiful skinny girls. I just about broke down right then. He knows that I'm one of the only ones who pays attention to any of his things anymore. So, why did he do it? My mind is telling me, "He did that to show you that there is no chance in hell that he's going to like a girl like you. Just look at those girls, you can't hold a candle to them." I got myself so worked up over the whole stupid thing. So, of course now I'm all discouraged in telling him.

Today at work, I couldn't help myself, I had to ask about the pictures. I did it in my flirty joking banter kinda way. However, you have to keep in mind, no matter what I say, my face and eyes don't lie AT ALL. So, I know he could probably read me like a book. Anyway, I looked at him and I kinda smiled and I said "So, what's up with all the man-whoring on your page now." He of course replied while smirking that he didn't know what I was talking about. I said, "what do you think I'm talking about, the pictures on your page, it looks like you are running an online dating service." He said "oh, that, well let's just say that they are encounters of some of my previous adventures." I said something to the fact of should have known...and then I guess I got kinda quite. It was then that he gave me this "look," this look that I can't describe along with a little smirk. And he's just staring at me. I looked at him and kinda laughed and said what...he was like oh nothing....but he still continued to do it. Even a co-worker approached to ask a question and she stopped mid-question and said "Woah, am I interrupting anything here???"

So seriously, what the fuck is going on???? He was also more touchy than normal today. *SIGH* I told you that I was driving myself crazy.......I've got to stop this.