So maybe I am a little bit more on the straight side than I thought.... 
I know for certain that I am bi seeing how I'm equally attracted to both sexes. There for a little while I was thinking that I was a little more toward the ladies than men. They just were not doing it for me at all....even just looking. However, ever since this "crush" on my boy at work came along, I really don't know what I'm after more.
Have you ever had a moment when just a casual touch has made you literally weak in the knees?? I have always heard the expression and used it many times, but I've never had it literally happen to me until today!
Like I said, I work closely with this guy and we constantly change out keys all the time. No big deal at all. Well tonight I was returning his keys while helping a customer and I had them in the palm of my hand as I was handing them back. Well, when he reached to get them from me out hands had palm to plam contact as the keys were exchanged. Just that simple contact with him, literally made my knees weak. I had to reach out to the counter because I seriously thought I might fall. I then took a few breaths and was fine.
And what gets me is that before that happened I was pretty much convinced that the "crush" phase was dying down. I was no longer "swooning" when I saw him. But, I guess it's not over yet but who knows.....
I don't know where he stands either, seeing that I'm too chicken shit to actually come out and point blank say that I like him. I've done all that I can think of to say it in a subtle manner. I've invited him to movies (although it has been group movie trips), and I've sent him messages about his poetry that he point blank told me that I had to read. And from the poems, there is someone that he likes...don't know who but SOMEONE. And he's always interested when I first tell him about the movie, but then when it came down to it, he pulled out of going.
*SIGH* I'm just so frustrated because I don't want to make a "real" move if there isn't more than friends feelings there. Since we work together, I don't want it to be weird and also don't want to risk the friendship, because if I can't have him in a relationship, I'd settle for friends. He is just an awesome person. GRRR.....
Anyway, I'll stop blabbering for now about all this stuff....just had to get a little off my mind.....
I know for certain that I am bi seeing how I'm equally attracted to both sexes. There for a little while I was thinking that I was a little more toward the ladies than men. They just were not doing it for me at all....even just looking. However, ever since this "crush" on my boy at work came along, I really don't know what I'm after more.
Have you ever had a moment when just a casual touch has made you literally weak in the knees?? I have always heard the expression and used it many times, but I've never had it literally happen to me until today!
Like I said, I work closely with this guy and we constantly change out keys all the time. No big deal at all. Well tonight I was returning his keys while helping a customer and I had them in the palm of my hand as I was handing them back. Well, when he reached to get them from me out hands had palm to plam contact as the keys were exchanged. Just that simple contact with him, literally made my knees weak. I had to reach out to the counter because I seriously thought I might fall. I then took a few breaths and was fine.
And what gets me is that before that happened I was pretty much convinced that the "crush" phase was dying down. I was no longer "swooning" when I saw him. But, I guess it's not over yet but who knows.....
I don't know where he stands either, seeing that I'm too chicken shit to actually come out and point blank say that I like him. I've done all that I can think of to say it in a subtle manner. I've invited him to movies (although it has been group movie trips), and I've sent him messages about his poetry that he point blank told me that I had to read. And from the poems, there is someone that he likes...don't know who but SOMEONE. And he's always interested when I first tell him about the movie, but then when it came down to it, he pulled out of going.
*SIGH* I'm just so frustrated because I don't want to make a "real" move if there isn't more than friends feelings there. Since we work together, I don't want it to be weird and also don't want to risk the friendship, because if I can't have him in a relationship, I'd settle for friends. He is just an awesome person. GRRR.....
Anyway, I'll stop blabbering for now about all this stuff....just had to get a little off my mind.....
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I kept running into him tonight. I wish I would have lunch at the same time as him again and I'd try to feel him out. He's just really hard to initiate conversation with.
I'm intimidated. haha...
But I really want you guys to get together!