Hopefully I will get my hair cut tonight!
I am sad though...
Amanda will be gone for 3 days, in Florida
come Thursday..... I don't know how Ill be able to get to bed without her being here. *sighs* I guess Ill end up staying up way to late, so I pass out from exhaustion. Then I'll get some decent sleep. I should go buy a Real Doll or something, ha!
More sad news.... My mom got fired from her job... not like it was that great anyways(she cleaned hotel rooms... such a role model i know
), but she has gone back to taking pills. I can't have a normal conversation with her without her sounding as if she always about to fall asleep, or slipping away . I had a chat with my dad, and I don't know if I can handle them anymore. I really don't want the next time I see them to be at their funeral, but every day that passes, seems more and more like my future. Everyone back home is happy as hell about me now that I have a job. But I could never make them as happy as they were when I lived there and was always there to break the tension between the family, or offered conversation to get them all out of there small town brains.
How did I turn out the way I have?
How come I wasnt brain washed by small town life?
Why did I want more out of my life then everyone else?
What makes me so different?
I am sad though...
Amanda will be gone for 3 days, in Florida
come Thursday..... I don't know how Ill be able to get to bed without her being here. *sighs* I guess Ill end up staying up way to late, so I pass out from exhaustion. Then I'll get some decent sleep. I should go buy a Real Doll or something, ha!
More sad news.... My mom got fired from her job... not like it was that great anyways(she cleaned hotel rooms... such a role model i know
), but she has gone back to taking pills. I can't have a normal conversation with her without her sounding as if she always about to fall asleep, or slipping away . I had a chat with my dad, and I don't know if I can handle them anymore. I really don't want the next time I see them to be at their funeral, but every day that passes, seems more and more like my future. Everyone back home is happy as hell about me now that I have a job. But I could never make them as happy as they were when I lived there and was always there to break the tension between the family, or offered conversation to get them all out of there small town brains.
How did I turn out the way I have?
How come I wasnt brain washed by small town life?
Why did I want more out of my life then everyone else?
What makes me so different?
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wyspurr:
my mom, while not a pill popper, has also given up on life. i think she once had that spark, to get out of town, and do something magical for herself. i think what we have that they didn't is the ability to hold onto our dreams. they bcame jaded, and let their fears control them. it's easy to become nothing when you're scared to become something.
oryon:
cheer up, J-bomb