sneakypie

for some people, the pseudonymity of the internet is a balm and makes interaction easier.

for me, it's a hindrance.

i'm a very confident person. you can see it in my walk, i smile at people whose names i don't know, i don't mind talking to strangers. in fact, sometimes i'll say things that would probably be rude out of context, but because i'm interacting face to face, whoever i'm talking to doesn't really feel threatened. through body language, tone of voice, and facial expression i tell them "hey, don't worry, i'm not judging you." that's my personality. i tend to think of people like dogs because i know them so well, and i think of myself kinda like a boxer. blunt-faced, toothy, likes to roughouse, and easily groomed. boxers will jump all over you and punch you with their paws [hence the name] but they're only playing. that's obvious the second you look at those sparkling brown eyes, the tongue lolling out, and that barely-controlled wiggling.

here, that's not so obvious. and i keep quiet way more than i usually would, just because i couldn't stand it if i accidentally hurt someone's feelings, or if people couldn't tell that i was purposely being an ass. [another thing i love. ] also, there's no way i could hold up in a flame war. i can't bear defeat!

but keeping quieter than usual isn't so good if you're trying to get noticed, make a niche for yourself, and be a model on the site. it's a conundrum.

this all came about while i was thinking about my response to prendick's challenge. my testimonial is to al, because her involvement with the site amazes me.