Ok it's 3:30 on the dot and I'm up, I'm not supposed to be up for another two hours. and my job is gonna kick my butt in a bit. My brain is to full there is no way I could sleep.
I am thinking about many things, when making a new platonic friend how long do you wait before making a plan to go out or even calling? and if she's a cute girle should I even try?
If you are having marital problems, but are working on it when is enough, enough? I do love him, He just makes me nutts. I wasn't realy sure this is what I shgned up for. how do you regain passion? is all our fun gone, now only to be replaced by arguments over bills?
Can I pay my bills? I took a cut in pay in order to attempt to save my fragile sanity, I went from two jobs both with massive overtime, to one job with none, did I inadvertantly sink us? am I selfish? one of the reasons I got out was that I never saw him and kept cheating with co workers, I was up driving to crazy places at all hours of the night with realy sick people in my truck, working 48 hours or more at a time. WTF of course it was the right thing to do to leave, and every one warned me I'd miss the $ but I don't, HE does!
I wonder who'll come to the sgatliens X-mass party? Thanksgiving was a bust, not one single person came. My friend Rod. was pretty cool the other day. He said I should have saved the ham and let it sit out and brought it to the party. I thought I was over it but I want so badly to forget, how ever it makes me wonder what sort of person I am to not seak out a diferent group. Though for the most part there allright I think. I hope.
I always have fun when I'm out with them. maybe it wasn't fair to ask them to go 45 min otp?
It is a bummer to have to drive so far to go in to the city. I would love to live in one of those lovly old homes, or apartments, maybe have a hole new life, with a ne job and a lover, maybe a girl and a boy friend. I could be one of those tragicly hip people in a polyamerous situation,.
I wish I could loose weight, If I could just manage to be anerexic for more than a couple of days or manage the delacite art of benging, then It would solve alot of my issues, I cant't lose this last 50 lbs to save my life.
If I was thin I would be a stripper, some of those girls make what I make in a week in a couple of hours. plus I woulld get to dance and I love dancing, plus I think it would be sort of a power trip to know I could bring men to their knees with a flash of tits and a come hither flirty look.
this sucks man I want to sleep but as you can tell it goes on and on and on. ther are many other things in my head that's just a few of them, but not in that order. any way I guess Im gonna go watch tv.
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I am thinking about many things, when making a new platonic friend how long do you wait before making a plan to go out or even calling? and if she's a cute girle should I even try?
If you are having marital problems, but are working on it when is enough, enough? I do love him, He just makes me nutts. I wasn't realy sure this is what I shgned up for. how do you regain passion? is all our fun gone, now only to be replaced by arguments over bills?
Can I pay my bills? I took a cut in pay in order to attempt to save my fragile sanity, I went from two jobs both with massive overtime, to one job with none, did I inadvertantly sink us? am I selfish? one of the reasons I got out was that I never saw him and kept cheating with co workers, I was up driving to crazy places at all hours of the night with realy sick people in my truck, working 48 hours or more at a time. WTF of course it was the right thing to do to leave, and every one warned me I'd miss the $ but I don't, HE does!
I wonder who'll come to the sgatliens X-mass party? Thanksgiving was a bust, not one single person came. My friend Rod. was pretty cool the other day. He said I should have saved the ham and let it sit out and brought it to the party. I thought I was over it but I want so badly to forget, how ever it makes me wonder what sort of person I am to not seak out a diferent group. Though for the most part there allright I think. I hope.
I always have fun when I'm out with them. maybe it wasn't fair to ask them to go 45 min otp?
It is a bummer to have to drive so far to go in to the city. I would love to live in one of those lovly old homes, or apartments, maybe have a hole new life, with a ne job and a lover, maybe a girl and a boy friend. I could be one of those tragicly hip people in a polyamerous situation,.
I wish I could loose weight, If I could just manage to be anerexic for more than a couple of days or manage the delacite art of benging, then It would solve alot of my issues, I cant't lose this last 50 lbs to save my life.
If I was thin I would be a stripper, some of those girls make what I make in a week in a couple of hours. plus I woulld get to dance and I love dancing, plus I think it would be sort of a power trip to know I could bring men to their knees with a flash of tits and a come hither flirty look.
this sucks man I want to sleep but as you can tell it goes on and on and on. ther are many other things in my head that's just a few of them, but not in that order. any way I guess Im gonna go watch tv.
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visara:
Don't be so hard on yourself sweetheart 