snapdragonpoppy

Bills suck out loud. I don't think I'll be attending either the dragon con or rob zombie/shinedown. double bummer.
I realy want to cut right now, no actualy I want to cry but I don't like to cry. The hunny bunny is probably gonna get yelled at whan he gets in. I can't even go to my lame ass physical therapy for my stupid knee. I like pain so if i actualy went to a doctor, ya know it had to be bad. I drink to much and am in great fear of regaining the 20lbs I just lost. I can't sleep very well and wake up tired. My car needs work, one of my dogs needs to go to the Vet. And I just found out I won't be able to attend the oriental medicine school I like.

I just don't know what to do with my self.

sighs.......... may be masturbation, and yoga followed by a hot bowl of stew......yeah then some booz.....that'll fix every thing.

I think I just found something else to worry about.

I'm starting to think like my mom.

Not that I know if she masturbates, but the part about not dealing with what's bugging me.
wich is odd, cause I still can't put my finger on the problem. cause none of this is realy that odd for me.

thanks for reading my rant