just sitting here mopen around and it dawned on me perhaps stuff can wait, like mabe I should just stick around and see what unfolds. on the other hand life is short and before you know it I'll wake up and be old and have spent my whole life in a very small town and never had a girlfriend and I'll always be working and fat and never have traveled the world and.........
ya see what I'm up against, I think my own worst enmy is -----should I even say it? well selfdestructive behavior is one thing, at least it's something you can see and deal with. I think the what if's are even worse than depression, oh well i'll keep keepin on, I always do
i was doing that too. and i really cant say how to fix that odd feeling.