snakefeast

alright. Reset. Spent friday night searching for wheel cylinder for my front brakes, because I rebuilt it, it lasted only a couple of weeks after I did and eventually just blew out, replaced it yesterday, bled the brakes and all is well again. Spent friday night hanging out here with a friend drinking while my girl did family stuff with her boy who is in for the holidays from canada, bright little guy. I've never been with a girl with a kid before, but he's alright. Went to the Science Place yesterday and had a great time with 'em. Only problem, friday night we were supposed to do something, but couldn't because of my car sit. so she did family stuff and this friend of mine calls out of the blue and says she'll bring soe beers over and we can hang out, girlfriend gets jealous, I can't blame her. I don't think my new 'friend' had her best interests in mind, well I did and I made it clear that we were just friends and that's all. I've heard lies like this before, so I can't blame her for being a little worried and distrusting, but I'm honest and I just couldn't pull anything like that off, nor would I want to because I respect her and her feelings too. I think she knows that now, I hope she does. I think after all we have both been through, there are still some trust issues, i think that goes for everyone. I just want more than anything for her to know that I have her best interests at heart. my x- wife spread rumors all over town about me so she could have her 'open marriage' that I was never aware of, and the whole time people are thinking I'm some kind of cad without me knowing and once I find out that she is the source of them, my head is just reeling. I'd like to keep my integrity if nothing else. I value that more than anything. I think my girl knows that, she just has moments of doubt and I guess I can't really blame her. There's always the cliche' "but I'm Different" yeah, that always works. I guess in time, action will speak louder than any words I can muster.