smurf

What I crave....

is those hot summer nights where you feel like you can stay up till it gets light the next day...
is not being anemic...
is being able to loose weight...
is being the smartest i can be...

What I want...

is always out of reach...
will come to me if i try hard enough...

What made me sad...

was hearing Mitch Hedberg died...the shock wore off and now I'm about to cry for him...he was 1 of my favorite comedians...

What pisses me off...

is the Regional Manager at Mel's Diner...she's retarded.

What I lack...

is a group of friends..
some one who understands me...
self-confidence..
self-respect..

What I want...

is now the opposite of complete and total chaos...

I want serenity and order...abundance & life...I want heros and victims...I want to be able to put the suffering aside...to not be eaten with rage....What I want ---is the complete opposite of horror....to smell the inevitability of life...to laugh at pain-hysterically- to know nothing of regret or remorse...to spread my sweet disease...to live the end of days.....to be a voice....to be the one responsible for finally putting a stop to all..........of this.