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Today I started my job at Mel's in Walnut Creek...I'm loving it.
I took out all my facial pierings that couldn't be hidden. Now I only have my septum pierced beacuse I have flip the ring up inside my nose. I took out the right and left nostrel, and my lip ring. I thought I would be crushed loosing all these piercings that I've had for soo long. It's odd seeing myself with no metal what-so-ever in my face. I did cry for a minute or 2 when I took them out. But now I realize....I just look like Gwen Stefani THAT much more....which always makes me happy

but i still feel like this

oh well

i woke up today
to find myself in the other place
with a trail of my footprints
from where i ran away

it seems everything i've heard
just might be true
and you know me
(well you think you do)

sometimes, i have everything-
yet i wish i felt something

do you know how far this has gone?
just how damaged have i become?
when i think i can overcome
it runs even deeper

in a dream i'm a different me
with a perfect you
we fit perfectly
for once in my life i feel complete...
--NiN "Even Depper"