Ok fine Ben i'm updating!! 
I got back from Arizona on Saturday and went straight to Rocky Horror...i wasn't in it but i just wanted to be around funny weird people after being in a city dominated by boob jobbed binmbos and face lifts...i was in Scottsdale where my Aunt and cousins live...its like what Beverly Hills is to Los Angeles is what Scottsdale is to Phoenix..
It was good seeing my family over there...I really wish my Aunt lived over here again in the BAy Area...they lived in Clayton for a while and now that I'm older I really wish they stayed...She's kinda like an older sister rather than an Aunt...Even my Grandma considers me like a 4th kid rather than a grandchild...My Aunt and I are on the same wavelength and have gone thru a lot of the same things and she's some one I look up to.
Every time I get back from some where I usually try and go out and about here and see people I havent for a bit and catch up on things...but this time I''m feeling very much like a hermit...I just want to stay in my house and paint till I feel better...I turned off my phone so I wont be jumping because of its ring...Maybe next week I'll return to Chez Paree finally...I had a dream last night that they didn't want me anymore
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I'm really looking forward to this Art show thingie and I'm trying to get focused and do the best I can to paint something but I still feel really bad from loosing my best friend...Last night I was looking for something in the garage and I stumbled on a picture of him that I forgot I put in a frame...It set me into a little fit of crying and clutching the frame asking "why is he so different now?" and "why is he so mad at me?" I just think this song by The Offspring sums it up...go here and watch the video...I like it
The Offspring
(Can't Get my) Head Around You
off of the 'Splinter' CD
Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Even though I try I can't get my head around you
Somewhere in the night there's a light in front of me
Heaven up above with a shove, abandons me
Even though I try I fall in the river of you
You've managed to bring me down too
All you're faking (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Shows you're aching (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Lettin' you inside, isn't right, don't mess with me
I never really know what's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you
All you're feeding (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Shows you're bleeding (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Covering it up like a cut with the likes of me
You know I've really tried, I can't do anymore about you
(Yeaaahh)
The cut's getting deeper
(Yeaaahh)
The hill's getting steeper
(Yeaaahh)
I guess I'll never know what's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you
I got back from Arizona on Saturday and went straight to Rocky Horror...i wasn't in it but i just wanted to be around funny weird people after being in a city dominated by boob jobbed binmbos and face lifts...i was in Scottsdale where my Aunt and cousins live...its like what Beverly Hills is to Los Angeles is what Scottsdale is to Phoenix..
It was good seeing my family over there...I really wish my Aunt lived over here again in the BAy Area...they lived in Clayton for a while and now that I'm older I really wish they stayed...She's kinda like an older sister rather than an Aunt...Even my Grandma considers me like a 4th kid rather than a grandchild...My Aunt and I are on the same wavelength and have gone thru a lot of the same things and she's some one I look up to.
Every time I get back from some where I usually try and go out and about here and see people I havent for a bit and catch up on things...but this time I''m feeling very much like a hermit...I just want to stay in my house and paint till I feel better...I turned off my phone so I wont be jumping because of its ring...Maybe next week I'll return to Chez Paree finally...I had a dream last night that they didn't want me anymore
...
I'm really looking forward to this Art show thingie and I'm trying to get focused and do the best I can to paint something but I still feel really bad from loosing my best friend...Last night I was looking for something in the garage and I stumbled on a picture of him that I forgot I put in a frame...It set me into a little fit of crying and clutching the frame asking "why is he so different now?" and "why is he so mad at me?" I just think this song by The Offspring sums it up...go here and watch the video...I like it
The Offspring
(Can't Get my) Head Around You
off of the 'Splinter' CD
Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Even though I try I can't get my head around you
Somewhere in the night there's a light in front of me
Heaven up above with a shove, abandons me
Even though I try I fall in the river of you
You've managed to bring me down too
All you're faking (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Shows you're aching (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Lettin' you inside, isn't right, don't mess with me
I never really know what's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you
All you're feeding (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Shows you're bleeding (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Covering it up like a cut with the likes of me
You know I've really tried, I can't do anymore about you
(Yeaaahh)
The cut's getting deeper
(Yeaaahh)
The hill's getting steeper
(Yeaaahh)
I guess I'll never know what's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you
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