Relationships. I mean I guess when you find that right person it's cool but fuk til then if you bet do them that "one" person it's seriously sucks. Especially if you're in a relationship that's emensly difficult to leave.
That's where I'm at. I know it'd be best for him and I if we weren't together but he has such an attachment onto me and it sucks to feel that you can't leave to better yourself cause this person may kill themselves if you do.
And then there is also the fact that without him or his family I have no where to go and my sg journey would come to a huge halt cause I'll lose my transportation. But see that's terrible of me if I'm with him for that.
But our relationship isn't even a real relationship. It started out way to fast, we didn't even really know each other I really just wanted to get my rocks off by him but ended up staying cause I thought it'd be the right thing. I was wrong. We have almost no common ground, he can hardly hold a conversation with me, and we argue almost all the time. There is more but I'm not gonna keeping thinking of all the reason why we're not compatable.
But how do you leave someone you spent a year an a half with giving so much of your time and enegry for them and then just totally leave with out feeling bad of their feeling to not go back. I need to further my life and take the opportunities that are handed to me but it's difficult but I nee to do this to continue with my youth.
