there is a black hole in my bed
next to where i lay at night
you can't see it but it is there
just faintly sucking the light from my room
if you didn't know it was there
you might just think it a shadow
or not see it a all because it is just
a faint outline on one side of the bed
at night when i go to sleep
and turn out the lights it evelopes me
devouring me down into its darkness
blackness pulling me
down down down i go
sliding slipping falling flailing
until i reach another place
somewhere different from
where i live today alone
a familar feeling returns
sights smells and sounds
that trigger a memory
of a sweetness that is long
hidden from my own memory
a protection of myself
the light shines bright
and birds sing their stupid
chatter and the hills are green
in a time that was and is no more
the smell of her hair intices me
her smile infects me with a disease
that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach
that ache long suppressed and ignored
i see her again and I am happy
and remember all we shared
in our life together
i reach out for her
the sun burns my skin and eyes
my stomach hurts my throat stings
the whole place starts to swim
and I fall to my knees
my ears begin to buzz
and it is dark again
i stirr awake in my bed
my nightly journey over
they say in a black hole
no light can escape
but sorrow regret loss and
loneliness is another matter