Its a challenge to believe this sonetimes, but I do. I don't see it as the end of an existance even if someone argues to say otherwise. Its time for me to grieve again, grandma is going to heaven soon. This makes grandma from both sides of my parents will be one the otherside. This time I will really feel the effects. Yet also I have learned how to better cope with a loss of life. When I acknowledge their presence and respect them for who they were I leave my two cents behind which is usually to coins of the same kind. No pun intended but thats how I pay my respects
