smetdasucka

i wonder if me rambling on here on this little journal entry at 8am after being up for 30something hours is going to help my life, at the point im at right now, my life pretty much sucks. if anyone reads this does it really matter...or does it even matter that im writing this down right now, i should maybe see a doctor about getting on some anti depressents or something...but isn't that the answer for everyone now a days? just pop a could pills and be happy, should i really hope or think its that easy and if i do am i really happy or is my sadness just bottle up for a later date and it just builds up until the time and is extra rage to pull the trigger... things like this make me wonder should we all be on anti depressents or just me and others who think that so far the haven't accomplished much, and really nothing is going for them...ok so this journal entry isn't really going anywhere, and its not helping me want to be happy, and this has been alot of runon sentences, im going to bed....maybe i won't wake up and all this worry would have been for nothing.