smelker81

It is a double edged sword to "not look my age". I hate the "Wait, how old are you?" question. Women my age without kids, who are atheist, attractive and smart are few and far between. But hey, maybe when I turn 50 Ill find some hot young 40 year old hahahahaha. Seems so meaningless when you hit mid-life.

Im telling myself to not allow a drunken rant. Shit gets old. going that far into head space makes it hard.

Seriously though, I would bite that ass hahahaha

Also, when someone who knows Im single says "happy valentines day" it feels like telling a guy with no arms "sir, I wanna shake your hand".

And the amount of whack jobs on these dating sites is rather unsettling. I have reported more fake(thanks google image search)/scamming/phishing or just plain dudes with a profile that says "woman". One guy had a line in his bio about not legally allowed to be around children. I keep having women over the age of 50 trying to hit me up to chat. So fucking disheartening. And it seems a large chunk of "normal" people are either looking for a quick fuck with a "hot guy"(not me) or a sugar daddy(also not me). Wont be doing that shit again. Time to put down half this bottle so I can look through the void.

I used a further modified version of this for my "minds eye" album cover. More music that isn't listened to other then me.

For more than a year straight I was constantly taking pictures to take my mind off of things. Relationship, losing friends, cars and job. I'll share some of the better ones.

Wouldn't mind sharing with someone but it is hard to find someone to drink with in the middle of the night who doesn't freak me out hahahaha......later.

The vapor liquid in the background is blueberry cheesecake :) my favorite!

I will not say "io".........shit, I just did.