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I havent touched my guitars in a year, havent recorded anything in at least 2. When I hit 40 and realized it was too late for anything I went into sleep mode. The more I tried the worse things seemed to get. I thought I could hide or find strength in my music. In retrospect that was foolish and arrogant (honestly verging on retarded). I...
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smelker81:
@stephencreative although I do appreciate the sentiment I am past the expiration date. I turned 42 this year and spent 8 years of what would have been my "prime" working as a sound guy for local cover bands who made more in one night than I ever have doing my own music. Self doubt was 20yrs ago, this is just acceptance. I am fully aware of the brain rot that is tick tock but my inner libertarian just sits back and understands my time was long ago and this isnt for me. I will be returning to music in the coming months but it wont be at the rate I was going at with those older videos. If you have the energy left then challenge your dreams. As for myself, I am a relic from a time past. I havent touched my guitar in over a year now so I will have my work cut out for me
stephencreative:
The 2nd best thing to do is as you plan on doing. Making music for yourself.
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I started playing guitar after 8 years of cello because I wanted to play the pompous melodies and feel that wave peak when you jam so I started learning guitar after I heard "No More Tears" in the early 90's with that awesome middle 8 solo section.

About 5 years into learning guitar I had one last teacher. He tried to convince my young dumb...
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If any song makes me just sit back and say "fuck, I wish I could been a part of making something this good" it would be this one.

Mastodon has always been one of my favorites since Blood Mountain and Crack the Skye is one of my all time favorite albums but this song.........this song gets right to my core. As stubborn as I am...
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Maybe in the next life I will get another chance.

As for this one all I want is to move asses and leave the party early to let the lovers enjoy the ride before doubt and selfishness wake them in the morning after.

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This is an old one. I made this song during the beginning of my life falling apart.

I was an idiot back then......still am. I was so obsessed I would amount to anything musically. I didnt realize I needed to do it for me. Like writing on an encrypted wavelength. I could say anything I wanted without using word and allow other to see what...
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About 5 years ago I turned into a full blown alcoholic. In those 5 years I have had roughly 4 months of sobriety.

As with most people it was a bunch of things slamming me all at once. I had already been struggling with a lot of physical pains then the emotional stuff started to pile on top and I turned to a bottle. In...
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I dont often share it anymore but I do make original music. Most seem to enjoy the jam stuff so I share more of that as a result.

If you search The Schmelka on any streaming service you should see my most recent album Pious Grey. Pardon the vocals as I am rather new at doing that. I got tired of trying to find a...
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How do you be good enough for what you don't know?

Around and around,

Inside yourself until it is time to go.

What is my place?

Be good <3