smelker81

@ainoa If only :/ she is my brother's. He got married this week and I took care of her because I couldn't go. The only females in my life right now are animals.

@ainoa <3 you're the best :)

@alexwolf this is my brother's dog. I actually have 5 black cats :)

I only talk to one other person in this picture and it is someone I wouldn't have figured either and the guy above me was one of my best friends who is no longer with us. 

Heart shaped lens flare. Gotta be something out there.... at least that's what I tell myself. 

@ainoa Thank you miss ❤. Also,  In Flames lyrics have a way of hitting me right in the chest along with the driving melody. 

Little did my younger self know that this was better for me. I needed to hurt, it was to learn. Part of me knew that back then but I refused to see. I blamed a lot on her because I was unable to see. About 4 years after this rant she told me I made the right choice. Still doesnt make it feel any better but I learned that showing regret or hurt actually harms others more than it helps. People respect an apathetic honest asshole more than emotional honesty and I am finally starting to understand why. Would you rather the captain of a sinking ship apologize or would you rather they honestly tell you that we are going to die and it is their fault? I think I would rather have the shitty honesty over the meaningless comfort. I mean unless I am about to die......lie to me like I am about to get on the short bus in that case. The helmet is more a placebo at that point but hey, we have our own story.