smashka

Aargh sometimes it seems like I'm kinda on a hopeless journey trying to get the same girl to think of me as more than just a friend for more than a year now. I feel like i should give up but number one I'm no quitter and also every time i do get a little down on and lose my persistance she ends up calling me. i don't know what the hell to do I'm becoming a little too frustrated. I almost wish she would just have the guts to tell me I have no chance instead of always just either ignoring me or changing topics when i ask her anything semi romantically inclined.


just typin this cuz it keeps floatin in my head way too much lately not expecting a miracle really just dont wanna have it on my mind all the time anymore. I probably even hope she somehow ends up reading this

having a serious real crush on someone is hard, been a real long time since i had true feelings for someone and not being able to have them except that or recipocate has just been messin with my head lately cuz I don't even notice anyone else and that can't be good if she really doesnt see me as a boyfriend