slyderule

Oh no WHAT AM I GONNA DO? My son is on a mission to get me a girlfriend. I guess he sees this as an important step for my mental health, my physical health, and/or me just getting on with my life. I think I'm already making progress, sitting here in a very dark room with a dim light on, making friends and hoping someone besides my son (who i forced to read these), will stumble on to my blog. My daughter, Sherri was also doing this, but once again is so rapped up in the center of her universe (Sherri) that i really only hear from her when she is wanting something.
(ECONOMICS: Satisfying unlimited wants with limited resources.) Sherri tried to set me up with a a very classy Dom she met in a BD chat room. And that was so far the only one that i was even remotely (well more than remotely) interested in. I didn't go there partly because I was trying to get out of that chat because she was getting sucked into that lifestyle. The other kids would rather i cut off my gonads, pined for thirty years, laid down on my wife's grave and died. (Some wish sooner than later, most in pain until then, and all but one wishes a horrible excruciating death.)

So I can't really be real upset with Jason or Sherri or the other who doesn't want me to be in agony (but she would like me to remain miserable til death rejoins me with mom.) Apparently she was an ancient German who believes we can never be truly happy because of life's problems and can only truly happy in death. Worthy of Wagner. And most of the kids would want my wife reinterred (sp. but i have no idea how to spell it) next to her first husband when he dies. They were divorced for years when I met her. He was extreemly abusive. But the older stepkids thought if i wasn't around, they would get back together and live happily ever after with two or three of his girlfriends. NEVER would have happened.

But my social life ( love life, sex life, whatever) appears to be important to them all.

Me?

I'm not dead. But most importantly, I need friends. This may be an odd place to look for friends, but this is where I'm at. Trying to talk to people even though i do my share of lurking. Sometimes more concerned. (Rayne's precious baby girl is miserable with a cold.) Sometimes more superficial. ( GrumpyOB's weather and what has Sin planted lately.) But I'm still interested.

And I not only see very beautiful women, (many "girls" to me.) But I see some very, very inwardly beautiful people. And Nicolai's great youthful zest for life. ( I have to put Christmas lights in my room maybe the whole house.) And Keri's life is like the world's greatest novel to me and she is the most empathetic character. I want great things for her and a happy ending. But a book can be happily ever after, but in life an ending is terminal and so its more like a soap opera or a movie serial where i want the best for her always.

You are all people i am starting to care about.
So say "Hi" if you get a chance.
I understand if you don't.
Keep posting those blogs.
And remember that there are a lot of well wishers on your side out there, and maybe even a few prayers.

Hopefully my next post will be on the lighter side and you will all think I'm terribly witty (and shallow) and will wait anxiously for each new post.