slut_free_youth

perhaps the reason why she can't drop this is because it eats at her. she has this paranoid that i am going to drop all this and go back to the way things are. i have been trying to convince her that she has nothing to worry about. i care about her, and thats that. nothing can change it, unless she continues this crap. i just want her to drop it.. is that so hard? it is coming to a point where i don't want her to come by the house, and it's my own girlfriend. i know if she comes over, she is just going to want to argue and bring up "her". she can't leave well-enough alone.
maybe its just because she is a girl.
i don't know anymore.
we've been together for a month and a half almost, and i just don't think this is going to work. i thought it would be cool because we know the same people, we like the same things, we both go to school, we work, we have ambitions.
maybe im just waiting for disappointment? or my chance to run?... i dont know..
i think i just someone to listen to me... but right now I dont really have that, because everyone i know to turn to... they know her... and it's crappy because then the whole drama-messenger thing occurs.
i can't talk to her... because she won't listen.
it's cause she is female

ah well, ill just read some william faulkner and admire voltaire some more. i love her.

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