slut_free_youth

last night was awesome.
the havana night club was so cool, i was really enjoyed the show. steph was wonderful and made me smile. we laughed about people and the guys kept calling her "tit-anie", because her breast randomly exposed itself from her lowcut dress-shirt when she went to fix her pants. haha. its weird, she's hot, funny, sweet, and just makes me nervous.. but i can't seem to bring myself to terms to do anything with her. i just don't want it. and that's insane, right? or is it okay for me to not want her in that sense? don't get me wrong, i'd love to take it for a "drive", but its not that easy. she wants, that horrible R word, relationship. i do NOT want that. she's very serious about that, and ehh.. yeah.. maybe I should become a nun and make it easier.
oh... and..
we ran into fredy and ceasar (two high school friends) when we were going through the parking garage.. it was awesome to see them again.. im planning on hanging out with them tomorrow night, so it will nice to see some old faces and catch up on the times.
mike and dennis wanted to walk the strip, but everyone just wanted to go home and sleep. so the two went on their own and we later found out they got into more trouble than they should have.

overall.. i enjoyed myself to the fullest. there were moments when i sat there and would think to myself about the past. see a random tourist, and want to scream at them... but i knew they wouldn't understand my antics. and we caught the end of 'sirens'.. and i got to thinking.. which is shitty. but you know.. things happen for a reason. obviously moving in different directions is hard, no can deny that. whether for the positive or the negative.. especially when you spend most of your moments for a couple years with one specific thing on your mind... spending time with them. ah well. nothing anyone can do right?
"the hardest thing about saying goodbye, is actually turning around and walking away, without crying"

so true, dawg.


....tonight should be loads of fun as well. going to see danzig *with doyle*, as i lay dying, and bleeding through. i have to go pick up kody right now actually.. and head our nuggert asses to sonic and get us some food.

xoxoxoxox