slowtostanding

I saw Ryan Adams on Sunday with the girl.. it was high drama as could be expected. It was our first time hanging out since her ex-boyfriend left town after his week long visit.

I don't think any of you could handle it if I went into great detail (we're talking like.. novel-sized information and background) but basically, I was expecting bad, and hoping for the best.. and I pretty much got the worst. Turns out she has resentment towards me for "pressuring" her into a relationship when she wasn't over her ex or whatever.

The thing is, she can act like we're in a relationship when everything's a-okay at home.. but when the ex boyfriend comes back for a week, all of a sudden it's pressure? And when I act frustrated about the fact that we're in this situation she says stuff like "you knew what you were getting into" as if that's a good excuse for all the shit she's put me through?

Anyway, we're supposed to talk again tonight. There's a lot more shit she said that I am just blown away by.. so I'm really gonna say what I have to say and if she's not fine with that.. then I'm letting go, because it's really not worth all this craziness. I don't have time for this.


I finally see the light
Down on the east side
Wasted like a memory
If I had a car I'd drive
Straight off the bridge into the river, it would empty me

Pretty pictures in a magazine
Everybody is so make believe, it's true
I used to be sad
Now I'm just bored with you
You're doomed to repeat the past
'Cause nothing is gonna last
I burned all of your photographs