tonight is such a good night to listen to rocky votolato.
it is also a good night to watch the OC. helllllllyes.
umm, i'm kinda in this really weird mood. i think because i'm finally worried less about booking the tour since it's almost done.. i am worrying more about the band in general. i had a talk with joel bloodjinn and he was talking about how self portrait was getting management and all this stuff.. i've always been like.. management.. fuck that. but he's talking about how that's the key to getting a booking agent, bigger tours, press, etc.
i just don't know. i don't want to believe that. i want to believe that when the 5 of us tour the country in a van and play shows that we're making a difference or that we're proving something. i worry that we're not.
the girl is also confusing me like hell... mixed messages like crazy. a relationship with her would be impossible anyway, so i don't know why i'm setting myself up for failure. but part of me wants to believe it could work if she really want it. but i guess that's the problem.. she goes hot and cold.. and when she's cold it's like.. all i can do to get a 2 minute conversation out of her. and when it's hot she talks about driving 9 hours to see me.
regardless of words though.. it's her actions that matter.. whether she's busy or not.. and if that's the case, she's not worth my effort. if you are really into someone, there's no such thing as too busy. i believe that.
it is also a good night to watch the OC. helllllllyes.
umm, i'm kinda in this really weird mood. i think because i'm finally worried less about booking the tour since it's almost done.. i am worrying more about the band in general. i had a talk with joel bloodjinn and he was talking about how self portrait was getting management and all this stuff.. i've always been like.. management.. fuck that. but he's talking about how that's the key to getting a booking agent, bigger tours, press, etc.
i just don't know. i don't want to believe that. i want to believe that when the 5 of us tour the country in a van and play shows that we're making a difference or that we're proving something. i worry that we're not.
the girl is also confusing me like hell... mixed messages like crazy. a relationship with her would be impossible anyway, so i don't know why i'm setting myself up for failure. but part of me wants to believe it could work if she really want it. but i guess that's the problem.. she goes hot and cold.. and when she's cold it's like.. all i can do to get a 2 minute conversation out of her. and when it's hot she talks about driving 9 hours to see me.
regardless of words though.. it's her actions that matter.. whether she's busy or not.. and if that's the case, she's not worth my effort. if you are really into someone, there's no such thing as too busy. i believe that.

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and so is the OC. i'm so hooked. i have to figure out a way to record it on tour.
At least they are better than Good Charlotte and Simple Plan and the rest of that nonsense they play on the radio and tv now
And yes,the OC is totally fucking addictive.I'm almost embarassed to admit that I watch it,but as soon as Smallville starts up again,I will probably quit watching the OC.