sliverz

After careful consideration, I've decided to leave the dildo pictures posted, as a tribute to my hatred of the outside world... there to anger and annoy any whom are foolish enough to view the uploaded pictures of a madman.

I feel sick, right now. I puked not too long ago, and I'm afriad that it's certain I'll be doing so again before the night is through. My head hurts.

I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore. I've become lost and confused. I've made some desicions, and done some things, that maybe I shouldn't have. I hope the police aren't informed; jail isn't an enjoyable place. From now on, I think I'll just walk away from most issues, rather than deal with them, since I anger far too easily. Rather... rage would be more correct of a term. Some say I have an anger problem. Maybe so. Or maybe I don't like being fucked with all the time, and hold it in for far too long until it's built up into a bomb that explodes when pushed too damned hard. Yes, maybe I shouldn't hold things in anymore, and just let out my emotions more often... dealing with things as they occur, rather than all at once every now and then. I'm too cold and blank to everything most of the time, I "let shit slide" and try to ignore everything... then things like this happen.

I fell down the stairs earlier, too. Quite an experience... one I don't recommend trying. My leg hurts pretty bad, as does my shoulder. I cut my foot today, too; stepped on some glass shards from a plate I used to own. And my hand hurts. I got splinters in it, after having an arguement with a dresser. I'm not sure who won, but the dresser doesn't look too good. As for the walls; I'll be sure not to inform then next apartment managers whom I converse with that I lived here.

Well, maybe I'll sleep some more. I've done a lot of that today. Sleeping is good... a nice retreat from life. I'm tired. Maybe I've slept too much? Who cares.