slithers

Miserable again! Smoking again! losing it again!
Why can't people from the past leave my mind! They still fuck with my emotions even though i have no feelings besides hate for him anyway. It's strange how little things that happen in your every day life bring back bad memories of people you dont want to think about.

Every little bad or emotional thing that men put me though happens to brings me back to my ex and it has to stop. why?

I end up getting treated like shit from every guy i fall for. What do i do? I guess i am just a push over and i let them do it to me. I have to stop being so easy and stop being a target for shitty men, it only leaves me with a broken heart.

~NO MORE I SAY~
They have to put in the hard yards from now on. My body is sacried and nobody will ever see it untill they prove themselves!

I have learnt from my mistakes and they won't be made again! But then again i can be weak i know if the opportunity comes around i probably won't be able to say no but i am sure as hell going to try for my own good! i can't live like this anymore!

I need to find a man that will treat me like a person not a slave. Oneday maybe i will.

Nothing will ever change no matter what you say
I'm still gonna be the same
The haderwe try, the harder that we fight, can't get it right.
So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
And what if there was
You'd still be you and
I'd still need to say goodbye