Of course this was meant purely for -fun- The whole, guess what I look like thing. And when I told you all what I really -did- look like, it was me just talking. Not looking for pity. Not feeling sorry for myself or anything like that. And it's not that I lack confidence or anything either.
I could care less about how ugly I am. Or what people think. I stated in my previous entry. I am looking to impress, NO ONE! So it does'nt really matter. I was cursed with bad looks and born the way I am for a reason. I know that reason but wont go into it now.
Let's just say some people are destined to walk this earth alone. I was not meant to have a companion. A -wife- of sorts. I was not meant to have children/reproduce. People like myself have to live in solitude. Am I still -tempted- by the flesh? Yes. I'm still a man. I just cast it aside is all. And keep my eye on the larger plan. My true meaning and purpose.
Either way, this teaches me better then to write jounrals about myself. I'm not the best subject or topic for -good- conversation. If any of you wish to get to know the -real- me, that's cool. But I warn you all...My reality is a curse. And my dismal wrath and raging, hateful life story is like a disease when I speak of it. It spreads like some virul cancer. Until I've brought down and depressed and saddened all those around me who lent friendly ears to my tale of corruption and pain.
I consider you all friends. And refuse to -poison- you by speaking of such a ''Verbal Plague''. For my tale is truly one of darkness and terror. I would hope that you'd all take me VERY seriously when I say this. Anyways, back to writing about other things. You all take care, have a good 4th of July weekend, for those of you in the U.S. and to everyone else, on a worldly scale, right on. Take care my friends.
Strength and Honor,
SlaughterVein
I could care less about how ugly I am. Or what people think. I stated in my previous entry. I am looking to impress, NO ONE! So it does'nt really matter. I was cursed with bad looks and born the way I am for a reason. I know that reason but wont go into it now.
Let's just say some people are destined to walk this earth alone. I was not meant to have a companion. A -wife- of sorts. I was not meant to have children/reproduce. People like myself have to live in solitude. Am I still -tempted- by the flesh? Yes. I'm still a man. I just cast it aside is all. And keep my eye on the larger plan. My true meaning and purpose.
Either way, this teaches me better then to write jounrals about myself. I'm not the best subject or topic for -good- conversation. If any of you wish to get to know the -real- me, that's cool. But I warn you all...My reality is a curse. And my dismal wrath and raging, hateful life story is like a disease when I speak of it. It spreads like some virul cancer. Until I've brought down and depressed and saddened all those around me who lent friendly ears to my tale of corruption and pain.
I consider you all friends. And refuse to -poison- you by speaking of such a ''Verbal Plague''. For my tale is truly one of darkness and terror. I would hope that you'd all take me VERY seriously when I say this. Anyways, back to writing about other things. You all take care, have a good 4th of July weekend, for those of you in the U.S. and to everyone else, on a worldly scale, right on. Take care my friends.
Strength and Honor,
SlaughterVein
5alvani:
I am sorry to hear about your accident..... but bench press over 400 ? 
... strong fella'... and glad to hear you are fine with the way you look.. There is no use in dwelling.... but if it matters... i think gorillas are hot... and no, i am not into bestiality.. 
... Hope you have a fun safe 4th of July too!...
... strong fella'... and glad to hear you are fine with the way you look.. There is no use in dwelling.... but if it matters... i think gorillas are hot... and no, i am not into bestiality.. ... Hope you have a fun safe 4th of July too!... 
inkslut:
I used to body build when I was 17-20, but I had to give it up due to patellafemoral injuries. Kinda sucked, as I really enjoyed being bigger and stronger than most males. I am really into that whole dominance thing, so it was really depressing for me, and I was really insecure for quite some time. However, I am naturally pretty built for a girl, and I came to terms with the whole thing and learnt to accept myself for what I was. (Oh and by 'built', I DO NOT mean fat! Ha, ha, ha!) By the way Slaughtervein, what kind of hunting do you do? I am an avid hunter myself, and grew up in Northern Canada.