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These last few days have been really hard for me. I just flew in to San Diego friday. Sunday morning, I am awakened to a phone call telling me a guy I dated who was also a very close friend of mine had died in a car accident. He had been drinking and wasn't wearing a seat belt....he was going fast, lost control, and was thrown from the vehicle when it rolled. I'm in shock. He was an alcoholic. We had a love/hate relationship that just kept itself going. He was an amazing guy though, and my tears aren't falling as quickly as they should be. Life's rough. My group of friends lost another super person not even 2 years ago. And now this. I know everyone dies eventually, it's a fact. But it's so fucking hard to deal with when it happens.

Being alone has never felt so good as right now.