THE SOOO UNWILY LIFE....
-whenever I have to mention myself in here I will be known as belthasar, one because I I'd rather not list real names and two because I just think that name is cooler.
I can't sleep, I was laying in my bed tonight(when i say "My" bed I don't really mean mine because for the last 4-5 months or so, I have been sleeping on my mothers couch and basicly living out of a few shoe boxes I've stuffed neatly under the piano that contain my meager belongings and personal affects. With my small array of clothing all managing to fit confortably on a single hanger of the door knob in the master bathroom.
So I was laying on the top bunk in the boys room, got in there around 1:00am. I told myself "Tonight, you will get some sleep damnit! and break this ridiculous cycle!" So I thought I would go to bed on time for once, you know, "early." (Yes thats right, 1:00am in the morning is early for me) But alas, I just sat there tossing and turning, tried to tire eyes out by putting on the family guy DVD, but all that accomplished was irrating my eyes while providing me with a mild case of giggles. So here i am its......8:00am and I haven't gotten any sleep once again....everything is a copy of a copy of a copy....
I noticed alot of people say I go to sleep fast and easy, almost like its my trademark(Hence SlackInchief) However many nights I have the same problems many people have getting to sleep. Tonight is a perfect example. When I feel like my mind is troubled or jumbled or I'm just not that tired I like to put on old movies I've seen a hundred times to calm my mind and tire me out. Often times I find it almost impossible to find peaceful sleep without the TV blaring. But when I don't have that luxury, or just wanna try it more natural or "Old School" I almost always find myself thinking about world issues....almost always. There could be a show in my head titled "Whats plagueing the world today!? Whats plagueing belthasar?!" I'm always thinking, "hmm I wonder what I should do about saving those rainforests over in south america? If somebody doesn't do something soon they'll be gone forever...."
Or to put it in Seusian for all you fans:"Thats right, "UNLESS" unless someone like you cares a whole aweful lot, nothings going to change, Its not." I wanted to know how many other people out there do the same thing right before they go to bed. I know lots of people think about really mundane things right before they go to bed and you know, I'm kinda jealous, I wish, just once, the only thing I'm concerned with as I lay down to sleep is:"I wonder what mike told karren I did at that party last weekend...hopefully not everything.
So just let me know, who outta all you guys, out of all of you, anyone whose reading this right now, how many of you does this happen too? If you do it too a simple "I do" Or "Me Too" will suffice.
I appreciate your imput.
-whenever I have to mention myself in here I will be known as belthasar, one because I I'd rather not list real names and two because I just think that name is cooler.
I can't sleep, I was laying in my bed tonight(when i say "My" bed I don't really mean mine because for the last 4-5 months or so, I have been sleeping on my mothers couch and basicly living out of a few shoe boxes I've stuffed neatly under the piano that contain my meager belongings and personal affects. With my small array of clothing all managing to fit confortably on a single hanger of the door knob in the master bathroom.
So I was laying on the top bunk in the boys room, got in there around 1:00am. I told myself "Tonight, you will get some sleep damnit! and break this ridiculous cycle!" So I thought I would go to bed on time for once, you know, "early." (Yes thats right, 1:00am in the morning is early for me) But alas, I just sat there tossing and turning, tried to tire eyes out by putting on the family guy DVD, but all that accomplished was irrating my eyes while providing me with a mild case of giggles. So here i am its......8:00am and I haven't gotten any sleep once again....everything is a copy of a copy of a copy....
I noticed alot of people say I go to sleep fast and easy, almost like its my trademark(Hence SlackInchief) However many nights I have the same problems many people have getting to sleep. Tonight is a perfect example. When I feel like my mind is troubled or jumbled or I'm just not that tired I like to put on old movies I've seen a hundred times to calm my mind and tire me out. Often times I find it almost impossible to find peaceful sleep without the TV blaring. But when I don't have that luxury, or just wanna try it more natural or "Old School"
I almost always find myself thinking about world issues....almost always. There could be a show in my head titled "Whats plagueing the world today!? Whats plagueing belthasar?!" I'm always thinking, "hmm I wonder what I should do about saving those rainforests over in south america? If somebody doesn't do something soon they'll be gone forever...."
Or to put it in Seusian for all you fans:"Thats right, "UNLESS" unless someone like you cares a whole aweful lot, nothings going to change, Its not." I wanted to know how many other people out there do the same thing right before they go to bed. I know lots of people think about really mundane things right before they go to bed and you know, I'm kinda jealous, I wish, just once, the only thing I'm concerned with as I lay down to sleep is:"I wonder what mike told karren I did at that party last weekend...hopefully not everything.
So just let me know, who outta all you guys, out of all of you, anyone whose reading this right now, how many of you does this happen too? If you do it too a simple "I do" Or "Me Too" will suffice.
I appreciate your imput.
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j
and yeah, i program. I wish it was for games, I do GIS and mapping software. I'm a computer science graduate so not in school anymore but i've been considering doing my masters.