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Sunday Mar 27, 2005

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How do you move on?

I've been with the same person since I was a teenager. We've always been completely commited to each other. We've always been convinced we'd be married and share our lives together.

But circumstance is sometimes cruel and now it appears that we have to go our seperate ways. Neither of us are happy about it, I think we'd both like to turn back time and make none of this happen, but for us both as people there doesn't seem to be another way.

I've tried but everything I do does not seem to be enough and I know she has tried too.

How can it be that two people, so much in love, so devoted to each other, can end up having to part.

The worst thing is that we can't even be friends at the moment, there's just too much history for it to work.

I believe in destiny, but destiny seems to have let me down, we got together thinking that we wanted to marry each other, it was truly love at first sight not just lust. So maybe we are destined to be together, maybe in another time, another place we'll meet up again and that love will still be there. But if that is not the case, maybe we weren't destined to be together. We had six happy years, I'll never be able to regret those, and I want so much not to regret the lost opportunity of the next 40 happy years. I'm sure that fate is doing what it needs to do.

I wish I had a time machine, so I could see what my future holds, I almost wish I'd had one 6 years ago and could have seen this moment, but then maybe I'd have run instead of letting myself get so close. My sweetheart made me so happy for so long, I just hope she can move on more easily than I can, I have only ever wanted her to be happy and I after al she's been through, I hope she can be.

My life being so uncertain now, should do me good, I hope that soon I re-capture the excitement I used to feel about having an uncertain future, I used to love it. But I can't feel that excitement yet, I don't feel fear as I thought I would because I don't feel that I have control over destiny, I just wish that we could have been dealt a better hand because I know we would have been happy. Sometimes, something can happen that is just too much for anyone to bear and that is not nice.

I better keep my fingers crossed then that whatever destiny is going to deal up to me next is something that will make me happy, just haven't got a clue what that will be.

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