again, not dead.... life is continuing to beat on me even in my fantasy worlds. i can't get away from it and i fear it's bring those close to me down with me.
does that make any sense?
err, bright side is my unemployment isn't cut off, they're just taking their sweet time getting my checks to me and my old job is making it impossible for me to get a job ANYWHERE and i have little over a month to find one before i'm out of money. at least i won't be out on the street... but i've always been one to watch out and take care of myself, a nd although it's nice to have someone around who wants to take care of me and watch out for me i'm not used to it and it makes me feel very awkward and even a little ashamed, like i CAN'T take care of myself... and that's what my mother has been sayng to me my whole life. no wonder i have self-esteem and relationship issues. i'll go out with the first selfish dick who doesn't care about anyone but himself before beofre i'll go out with the nice guy who loves and appreciates me for who i am instead of just wanting a quick bit of fun. fortunately i'm stick with the nice guy who's too stubborn to have me running off
and although i feel awkward at best with my current situation, i guess it's not so bad. it could be worse... i could be living out of a dead car
Shadow
does that make any sense?
err, bright side is my unemployment isn't cut off, they're just taking their sweet time getting my checks to me and my old job is making it impossible for me to get a job ANYWHERE and i have little over a month to find one before i'm out of money. at least i won't be out on the street... but i've always been one to watch out and take care of myself, a nd although it's nice to have someone around who wants to take care of me and watch out for me i'm not used to it and it makes me feel very awkward and even a little ashamed, like i CAN'T take care of myself... and that's what my mother has been sayng to me my whole life. no wonder i have self-esteem and relationship issues. i'll go out with the first selfish dick who doesn't care about anyone but himself before beofre i'll go out with the nice guy who loves and appreciates me for who i am instead of just wanting a quick bit of fun. fortunately i'm stick with the nice guy who's too stubborn to have me running off
and although i feel awkward at best with my current situation, i guess it's not so bad. it could be worse... i could be living out of a dead car
Shadow
It sounds like even if your unemployment isn't cutoff now, it will be soon... that's pretty grim as long as you are stuck somewhere you can't get a job. It sounds like, for the job reason if no other, you need to get out of there, either going to school or getting work somewhere else.
Hang in there - things will look better as the weather warms up.