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Thanks everyone for the sweet, sweet replies on my last blog. My friend is doing a bit better now, and I hope she won't hit the low again where she loses sight of reality.

I had an amazing weekend after all. Went to the Pietasters thursday, we left Schiedam at three, picked my sister up in Utrecht and drove to Sittard, where we arrived at eight. Yes, that is ridiculously long, guess that's what happens when the whole of Holland is a traffic jam. They played at a small Mexican restaurant/bar and it was awesome, amazing atmosphere, amazing show once again. When I left the piano player said to me "Thank you, you were awesome", how funny is that.
Then friday after work a friend and I wanted to go to a dubstep show, but when we got there my bed buddy M. was just leaving because it was not that good, so we didn't want to pay the 10 euro entrance for a few hours (it was three already then) so I went home with a cab and after half an hour M. came to sleep at my place, he had to cycle home.
Saturday after work I went to Waterfront again with Pieter, this time for real, an amazing PRSPCT+ Classified edition with the best drum 'n bass acts. Danced my ass off, but left kinda early, around 4 because my feet were killing me, had worked a lot off course. Then a quarter past 10 M. called if he could sleep at my place again, he just came from an illegal party in Utrecht. So he slept here, I had to get up at 1 to get my last Sinterklaas present cause we celebrated it tonight at the folks (it was nice, not too special) and write two more poems, so around 3 I sneaked back into bed for an hour or two, for some cuddling and some more.
I am afraid I am really falling for this one, something I don't want, because I don't even know if I am the only one he's sleeping with, but I don't want to ruin the magic by trying to make more out of it. We have confessed to each other that we like each other, but that's it. A few weeks ago on a night out I was talking to his roomie and best mate and he tried to find out what was going on like "so you're freelancing now? Are there others next to M.? Is it only sex or more?" So I told him I wouldn't talk about it with him, so he said "But M. is a great guy right" and I agreed on that. I don't know what that was about, if he asked it for himself, or for M., but anyway, I didn't give anything away.
This week will be another good one, I'll just have to find a way to adjoin study and pleasure, because I have a huge literature exam next monday (about 500 pages of difficult literature), but I have the great Persistence Tour this wednesday and saturday, after another Sinterklaas celebration with friends ( I gave in, but I am not looking forward), Antistatik party in Waterfront, presentation of the Adnoiseam label dj's, which means the finest IDM, breakcore, breakbeats. For fun, check Drumcorps on Myspace, it's crazy! (zzz I won't ,make it because of the exam.. i'll need every second to learn this weekend, no time for hang overs!)
Everyone have a good week. Ape, Suzy, amazing to see you guys this wednesday!