I might just quit uni for the year. Try to do a few exams and then call it a day. Then next year I'll only have to write my thesis and do like 2 subjects. At the moment I can't sleep and I cry all night because I'm so unhappy and so stressed out. I feel like a zombie during the day. I don't want to go to uni, I don't want to go to work, I don't want to go to the gym, I don't want to go home, I only want to buy things, 'cause it makes me feel good. I need one more pair of Vans so I can wear a different pair every day of the week. After the Vans collection is completed (I want Vans era and also a pair of Oldskool lowtops, and maybe a new pair of Mary J's) I'll start on a pump collection: I've bought my first pair a few weeks ago and am totally into them.
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SPOILERS! (Click to view)When I don't graduate this summer I'll feel like the biggest loser. Then an education of 3 years has cost me about 4 and a half or 5 years. I used to be the smart girl in high school, who was involved in every commission, organised school parties (one night I almost booked the Apers, but I didn't cause I thought they would drink too much haha), did drama, always the leading part. In university I have been reduced to a huge pile of nothing.
So I'll have to make a decision to be completely stressed out till the end of august and maybe make it, if I make it without any concentration and hardly any sleep, and then start in september with my MA, or decide to stop now, try to finish three more subjects so I can graduate next january. Then I'll only have to write my thesis in half a year and get 12 more ECTS in Italian culture. Maybe follow an Italian language course to pick up where I left now.
Better news: if my boyf and I stick together this time, we'll go to Sweden for the holidays. He's really into travelling like the journey counts and wants to meet people and crash there, and I really want to see the nature and camp everywhere at lakes and spend a night in a luxurious hotel. So we'll show each other our kind of holiday, even though usually I go to France and I will miss southern Europe. But time for something new!
Oh and I might want a kitty now! I've wanted one for ages.But now I spend most my days at the boyfriends house which I cant do anymore when I've got a kitty. But I'd love to have one. He'll just have to visit me from then on.
Hij zag er al af uit zo met schaduwen...maar voor mij was ie on af...
ik ben helemaaaaaaaaaaaaal blij!!
hopelijk zie ik je weer eens...a dam conventie???
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