skurvee

So while I'm looking back at a shitty year and dreading the deja vu moment at 12 'o, when the new one begins and everyone will wish me "the very, very best, this will be our year, your year, you deserve so much happiness" and I'll be thinking "just shut the fuck up, I just can't believe this crap any longer", other people actually make new year's resolutions, and promise themselves better times lie ahead.
I'm sorry. I'm a pessimist and a control freak and I can't promise myself anything. I don't even know what I want, or what I actually COULD achieve so there's no point in setting goals when it even kills you more when you don't achieve them, or can't even make an effort.
I want to be someone else, but I'll never be able to live up to that resolution.
And if someone dares to throw firework in my direction I will totally rip their heads off. I'll try to stay inside from now till the first of january.
I do wish you all the best though, ofcourse.