I've been having a really hard time since I got back from Mexico, not only adjusting to real life after an amazing week in paradise, but life just seems to be getting harder.
I've been sick the past two days, I thought I had kidney stones but so far they say it's just a UTI, which I seem to have perpetually. work had been super stressful trying to get a million tasks done and management is getting reviewed soon so everyone is going nuts writing these brutal complaints(which is just a bummer to deal with every time I go I to work as it is). and top of being bed-ridden and calling in yesterday I have even more work to get done by Monday which is almost impossible.
and tonight I discovered im in the middle of an identity theft issue. my laptop has been super slow and I keep getting passwords on my accounts changed, which my boyfriend thinks is a keylogger(thank god for computer wiz boyfriend). but then today I saw that over $400 was taken out of my account from Walmart.com!!!! so I'm a stressing out a little bit because I won't have enough to pay rent or the bills that I just sent out 2 days ago.
all I want right now is a drink and I can't even do that because I'm on antibiotics.
I'm also stressed because I think I'm going to have to make some life choices soon and that gets me really frazzled and well... squirrely.
I love this community and Suicidegirls in general, but I go any further I'll have to deal with some disapproving family members and that scares the hell out of me. all day I think of the direction I want to take in life and how I can make it happen.
believe it or not I do like my job but I don't want to work at a grocery store forever. I want to make art and model and get into photography in the next couple months.
Im really just overwhelmed with everything going on and as someone with severe anxiety and manic depression is say I'm taking it all pretty well but I'm exhausted... the thing that is really getting me they is looking thru all the great pics from Mexico with all the girls. even if I never go pink I hope I get to do another Shootfest, I wish I could have taken everyone home with me.
okay well rant over, hope you all are having a great week!
oh and I also might be inactive for a couple weeks because it's been a year since I've submitted my set and the next one should be getting submitted soon so just hang in there I'll be back!
