skullynova

So lately I have been off on my own trip. I keep forgetting what I am supposed to be doing. I usually space out a lot but lately it's just been getting worse. I suppose I can't deduce it down to not being able to work and feeling depressed from not being able to do much when all I want to do is just move forward. I have been wanting to get back in the music scene but the music scene isn't that good. Too many people think because they play a sweep on the guitar that they are gods. When you play it on the same root with no variety and extremely fast that no one understands what you're doing is good. I always have been a big fan of metalcore. It's always been something that is very versatile. I just don't see why people have to make up a genre that has more than ten names in it that no one understands what you want. I feel that it just doesn't have any soul in it. When people can pull off something new and they put all there being into what they believe in. You can hear it right away. Yet when some idiot is barking orders then constantly writing you out, I just don't feel the need to stay. I always wanted to do some type of metalcore band with a female to front it but to find someone like that would be hard. Nothing is impossible, I suppose I just need to get out of this city and find a place that better suits my needs. I would need a job first and save up until I just get out or finally find people here. This was a really long rant which I know just went in different directions. I really just need to collect my thoughts and act on them.